Hello peeps, Assalamualaikum. Being in a relationship is a new thing, not just me, but to both of us. He never been in relationship too, the serious relationship. 

Both of us take it as a learning process. We declare first thing first, be transparent, don't hide anything from one another. Nak apa habaq, marah habaq, jeles cakap, and etc. Never expect your partner to read your mind. I'm glad we had the same principle. He is the type of person, ermm I can say sort of emotionless :D Not emotionless in a bad way, but he rarely show his emotion. I think it is a trait for introvert person. He is like Aida, but a guy version. 

We are like the different pole of magnet. I am the clumsy, havoc, random person, main redah ja, never bother about others and talkative. While him, the most calm person I've ever met, chill, cool, smart, observant, and only speak when needed. He is also a strict person I can say. I still scared of him, especially when he become quite after we said something. Darah sis kering terus yee bila dia diam macam tu. 

But things change when he smile. Ohh goshhh. I'm melting. I'm glad he rarely smile in public, if not, I might have a lot of competition. Seeing him smile, feels like seeing a rainbow after rain. All my stress gone, vanish. Getting him to laugh also was a challenge. But once he laugh, oh dear, I cannot describe it. Don't make me. I am not a funny person, tapi aku mudah terhibur. Dia angkat kening pon aku boleh gelak. The peak is when he utter a joke with a serious face. I'm dead X.X

On January 13th, I plan a birthday surprise for him. Not only him surprised, so do I. The restaurant decorate our table with a lot of red roses and love. It was so awkward for me. When I booked the table, I only mentioned celebrate a birthday. Never I mentioned my partner or my love birthday celebration. General. However, I can still remember his face that night, how he was surprised with the celebration. The whole restaurant sang for him. He present me a beautiful smile that night. Oh dear I wish I bring my powerbank that night to record that moment. My phone died that day, hence I did not have a chance to record that beautiful moment :(

Moving on to the dark side, on January 15th something happen. As we had decided to keep our relationship secret and private, none our friends know about us, only my close friend knew. When we attended our senior's wedding ceremony, his so called ex was there. All of us know about their previous relationship, there are not couple but they are close, never declared. I don't know how to describe their relationship tho :D Skip, all of the audience kept talking about both of them. And the gossip became more spicy when both of them talk at one table, just the two of them while eating ice-cream. I'm still burning while typing this but, just wanna drop it here. My facial expression change drastically, cannot hide it anymore. Amira pull me and try to calm me down. I never love someone, far from being hurt by someone. That is the first time I ever felt like that. Sakit sangat weyh. Tu baru dia bercakap biasa, I cannot imagine the pain when our partner cheat on us. InsyaAllah aku akan kekal single kalau aku kena hadap situasi tu. 

After that night, I didn't contact him. I cannot. The anger still burning. After a few days, I calm down and I reached out to him. Well he did contact me in between but I insist to give me time and space. He called me and he explained everything, every single details on what actually happen that day. Silly of me to straight away jump to conclusion and punish him with the cold war. I seek apologies from him as I know it was my mistake too. Both of us contribute in this mess. I noticed and overwhelmed when he called me that night to rectify the situation, that moment I can see he really hold on to this promise, no secret between us and be transparent. I shall do the same. 

That's it for now. Will be continued next month.

XOXO,
Jiejie Cute